I feel empowered when the sun is up. Nothing can get me down. I am strong, confident, awesome. I have amazing hair, awesome friends, a great imagination and personality. I may not know what I want to do with my life as a whole, but I am creative and have several ideas on what I CAN do. When the sun is down, I feel listless and depressed. I think to myself, "Why am I doing all this? Everybody hates me now". I get very lonely. Give me some hot cider and someone to keep me company, or someone to talk to, and I generally spring right back up and remember that it's not so bad, really. Thank you Winter, for taking and providing, but still being generally lovely. You are a moodswung mistress and I love you. I have Before and After photos! I absolutely LOVE B&A pics, so if you guys have links to some yourself, I would love to see. c: ( pics under cut )

Hi everybody :)
My sulcata, Gir's birthday is coming up on the 2nd and I am trying to give her a little party. I know I could give her the "usual" fruits but I want to give her something special.. maybe a recipe of sorts?

Are there any fruit or veggie dishes that I can cook or bake up for her? When it comes to baking, I am not creative and a bit intimidated by it..

She will, of course, get a "2" bday candle lol

Also, is there anything fun I can make for her, physically? She has a log that she likes to climb over and she runs around the house 1-2 times a day but I was thinking maybe a safe game of sorts?

Yes, I definitely AM that crazy animal lady lol

A little background on Gir since I never really post that much:
We bought her at a trade show. She wasn't the right "color", a little green, so we took her to the vet and $800 later, she had surgery to remove her infected outer skin layer and her jaw broke in the process. So she has a bit of an underbite thing going on. She's getting very good at eating normal foods now :). She had numerous health problems for about a year and we needed to give her little shots in her teeny arms (which are very strong and it hurts when she closes them on us!!) I'm so happy she made it and is feeling 100% great.

She's my dog's best friend and I'm happy to find a community that loves tortoises and turtles!!

So I've been with Keri for almost a year now and I love her with all of my heart. She is the best person I have ever met, and even though I've made mistakes she has stood by me and she knows I will always stand by her. When she first told me she was diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder when she was 18 I wasn't really surprised. She told me that because of her family and the way her life is that she would never transition, but then one day she sidelined me telling me she was really serious about transitioning. I was really upset at first, scared she would change when she started taking testosterone but I'm at a point where I am very supportive and I've let go of the selfish part of me that wanted her to stay how she is. I want her to be happy because I don't want to marry her and then when she's 55 being miserable because she never lived life how she wanted and then for things to become bad between us. I want her to live her life to its full potential, and I want to be there with her through it all.

Today she got her prescription for testosterone!!! We're both so excited. She gets her first injection on Tuesday, and I'm going with her. But even though I am feel that inside she is a male, there is still one problem. I feel like I will never be able to use male pronouns when I talk about her just because I've known her as a girl. She says she honestly doesn't care and that she wants to just be seen as how she feels on the inside, but I know that it would be hard for her to hear me calling her a girl all the time when really she is not.

So my questions to any transguys, or girlfriends of transguys or even ex girlfriends who dated their significant other before they transitioned are: Did you find it hard to start to use male pronouns? Did you find it easier once you started to see the changes for yourself? If your significant other was close with your parents before the transition, how did you explain to your parents? What are some things I can do or say to help make this easier for Keri, considering her family isn't very open to the idea of Keri transitioning?

Just for fun here are some pictures!

( me and keri! )

So I had the most wonderful night last night!
I came out to my bestie in the whole wide Washington state as trans, and he was wonderfully accepting... thus far the most accepting person I've come out to in my family/friends.

also, I shaved the sides of my head... I'm not sure how much I like it myself

Maybe I'll like it more when It grows out?

Just checking in, my finals week is almost over and I need a break! I'm newly single, and I'm so bored. Its like I have no idea what to do with myself anymore. Blah. So my question is- What are your holiday plans? ( So it's not only text! )

I find myself in a constant state of sex and gender flux, but the constant seems to be more "gay" leaning. I went through a trans period, where I shaved my head and took a man's name, but during that period, my partner was male. My hair has since grown back, and I've taken on a very, very femme identity for the first time in my life (Skirts! Heels! My God!), and this newfound femininity has me leaning towards finding a female partner. I tend to date the gender I'm "impersonating."

Anyone else do this?

Having short hair means that you are constantly in desperate need of a haircut.
Will you comment with either a photo of your hair and/or a hairstyle you adore?
I want something new and refreshing. And birly, of course.
Thank you! :)

( Cuts I am currently loving )

Hey all! I haven't posted in a while, but here is a video post summing up my happiness today


(This is going to be posted almost anywhere I can post. My bad, I'm just excited and want to share)

I found this interesting and thought you all might like it -

http://jezebel.com/5426143/taking-a-mans-name-opened-up-a-new-world-why-a-blogger-hid-her-gender

I recorded a new song tonight. I'm working on somewhat of a concept album - about the longing to be a sailor, the journey while you're there, and finally the realization that you want to be home.
This new song is supposed to be a letter written while away. I hope you enjoy it :)
Click here to listen

Hello everyone!
My firends and i are in vancouver bc for the next few days, and we were wondering what some fun (queer) things to do around town would be. preferably night festivities...of the dancing vatriety. something like a queer night at a cool club would be great. most of the gay clubs we have seen were more directed towards men, and i am looking for something more generally queer, or for women. anyway let me know of some fun things to do, also just anything neat around town would be great becasue we can't just do queer dancy things at night now can we.
note: if any of you know of any hip places taht aren't necessarily queer that is cool too. most of the bars we have found are sort of sporty/bro places, which is only fun for so long.

thanks!!!
-britt

Hello all beings human,my name is Nicole and I have a problem with sleep. I don't think its insomnia,I think its my screwed up body clock that only sleeps at 7am in the morning and wakes up at 6pm in the night. Yeah,I'm totally a vampire already and should be living on the other side of the world ha. Anyone have any suggestions for "cures" or ways to put my body clock back in place? Naturally and without medication of course.

Other than my sleep problems...how are all of you? What do you want for christmas! How has the weather been!


( Shortest post ever before my 7am bedtime )

Since my last post caused the hellfire and controversy I was sure it would, let me try to explain myself better. The fact that this community has become too photo-heavy and not discussion-oriented, is obviously a separate issue. So forget that, for a minute.

As for the rest of it, ( this is an excerpt from a comment I wrote in the other post )

Hey guys. I've been having a really tough time lately. (X-posted to ftm vanity)

Here's a couple videos I made on what's been going on. I made the first one like half an hour ago.
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For everyone who doesn't know about this:
http://www.butchvoices.com/
August 20-23, 2009 in Oakland California.

And an interview with the conference organizers by our wonderful ally Bevin:
http://queerfatfemme.com/2009/08/14/interview-butch-voices-conference/#more-201

It probably goes without saying that it's quite worthwhile to peruse the rest of the Queer Fat Femme website and download the podcasts too.

This morning my mother and I were sitting silently at the table and she turned to me and asked, "why are you so uncomfortable being a girl?"
To which I froze up and asked, "What??"
She referred to my hair and the fact that I do not wear mascara--two things I do not consider overly significant.

But it has been stuck in my head since then so I had to say something somewhere.
It could have been an opportunity to say... something. That I do not have any desire to play into the female expectations. That I see no reason to change now. To tell her to stop nattering at me about it.

I hadn't been feeling uncomfortable but I suppose I kind of do now.

So I've been an on-again-off-again member of this community since about '04...and I have to admit, I'm sort of frustrated that it seems to have become nothing but a community for non-stereotypically-feminine people (pick your PC term...sigh...) to post photos of themselves flouting gender stereotypes and dressing well in the process. And yes, I am, to a degree, guilty as charged. And there's nothing wrong with that, per se.

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Hey birls, been a good while. I'm now on um.. day 218 I think on my 365 project. I've been really busy with life... got pretty involved in the queer community here which makes me super happy! I freaking LOVE being queer, it's what I've been thinking lately, like dang, life is good. It's real freaking good. Um, other than that... not celebrating Xmas, or rather, not doing the whole presents thing and it really makes the whole experience a lot less stressful! Also looking to move AGAIN. Sigh. What is everyone doing for NYE? Anything exciting? This year has come and gone SO fast. Fall seemed to fly right by.



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Painting for sale. Maybe you have a friend who enjoys lowbrow sick and twisted/cute and hairy creatures? You should buy them this painting for christmas. They'll love it!
50 dollars
11x14 acrylic and ink.
"Loverboy"
email me at ponyboi215@gmail.com